It's only been 4 weeks since my husband has officially started his reboot, yet it feels like it's been that long since my last post. Not a whole lot has happened and I'm not really sure how I feel. On the sex front, we've only had sex one time since he's come home from his last work trip. He woke me up when he started running on my "front butt" (something one of the nieces said many years ago), and one thing led to another and bam! Sex. It was actually really great, but it was the last time we had sex. I remember wondering shortly after if him having sex with me in the middle of the morning was his way of just making sure we got one in-you know, just to keep the count up.
In the time since, I've been trying very hard not to pressure him into having sex with me. I've mentioned once or twice that I would really like to try to have sex on this day or that, but also made sure to tell him it was OK if we didn't. There have been several occasions in which I've attempted to stimulate his parts, but things have been entirely flaccid.
There are two possibilities that come to mind to explain why this may be happening. The thing that pops up the most is that he may be experiencing a flat line. I don't know a whole lot about flat lines, how soon they can occur, how long they will last, if there's any reason to feel concerned etc.
I don't think there's anything wrong with these "dry spells" though. They seem to be a normal occurrence. I just wish I knew more.
The other possible culprit would be the new meds he's supposed to be taking for sleeping. It falls into the Benzodiazepine class of drugs so the side effects can be pretty... pungent. I wish he's never read up on the side effects though. He's so much like his mother in that when he reads about something all of a sudden he's experiencing it too. I'm not saying that he's not sincerely experiencing some of the side effects though. Rather, what I mean to say is that because he knows they are side effects of the meds, it gives his brain an excuse to continue exhibiting those side effects. If he didn't know they were side effects of the meds, he would work a little harder to combat them rather than just let them roll over him.
I don't know... if things were because of a flat line I could handle it. I would know that eventually it would pass. If it's because of the meds though... Then there's just no way he can use these meds long term. I kind of hate that he's using meds to sleep anyways. I think a huge part of the problem is his porn addiction and lack of physical activity and that once he gets those things under control, then sleep won't be an issue. Sometimes I don't want to be married to him because I think he's a punk bitch for whining about sleep issues. Here's a quote, "Talking about a problem without proposing (or perusing) a solution is called whining". I'm really mad right now.
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